Am I messed up you decide: Updated my story

Ok what is on my mind, oh how about my story how it began for me, the earliest memory of dressing in women cloths was when I was around 10 when I put on a pair of tights and really liked it, then nothing happen again until my 20's when a girlfriend had gone to work and I tried on her cloths and was like, man I am sexy.

Then I suppressed my feeling for years, over having my life, then I started getting the feelings again so in my 30's I bought a dress it was a really crappy dress made me sweat like a pig in it, but still I put it on and enjoyed the feeling, then it all got suppressed until a couple of months ago when I started buying cloths again but this time in my 50's I thought I want to tell someone about it, it was hard to say it,
but I just through it out there to my wife, at first she was like what if I don't want you to do it, I was like its apart of who I am and I'm not going to change it, she has come to terms with it now, although there are day's that she is against it and gets moody with me

because she worries about what may develop from cross dressing, will I start wanting to be with men, will I want to have a sex change
For me its about feeling good feeling happy wearing women's clothes makes me feel nice the feeling of the clothes are so different from guys clothes

I have however watch many different types of porn and had feelings from watching gay/Bisexual porn then comes the fantasies, I have thought about what it would be like and I have got off from watching gay/Bisexual porn but then after feel dirty and disgusted about it, but then keep going back to it. But then I don't fancy men, I fancy women

I also looked in to what if I had a sex change, its just not possible for me, I was born with klinefelter's syndrome, people with klinefelter's syndrome are more likely to get breast cancer and thrombosis, so taking estrogen is out of the question for me

On another side though, due to klinefelter's syndrome I have to take testosterone hormone treatment as I am a 47xxy so two parts female to male
and without the hormone treatment I would develop breast tissue and be a smaller build, but still have a dick and then be seen as Transgender
however I have to take the meds because I also have osteopenia which is a low bone density that stems from having klinefelter's syndrome

My Intro
hypersexual Lesbian cross dresser part time
Underneath the glam there is a man


hypersexual Compulsive sexual behavior is sometimes called hypersexuality or sexual addiction. It's an intense focus on sexual fantasies, urges or behaviors that can't be controlled. This causes distress and problems for your health, job, relationships or other parts of your life
This always shows its ugly little head when I am not happy in a relationship, normally around the bedroom, I live in
a sexless marriage which is a marital union in which little or no sexual activity occurs between the two spouses, I have had sex once with my wife
in four years the rest of the time I have to please myself, that's where porn comes in handy

The Lesbian bit of my intro this was to put guys of from sending my dick pics, it does not work I still keep getting dick pics
due to the fantasies sometimes I like it and then just write back all flirty, but most of the time I hate it

so in a nut shell that's me, feel free to ask anything and I'll try to answer it

Feeling me. Feeling happy.

"Sunday means Fun-day"
when u doing somthing special or different.

Good morning lovelies it’s a miserable looking day out there so how about a few pics from last night xxx

Good morning ladies have a good day xxx

Getting dressed up to serve my wife breakfast

What you like me to wear n makeup to put on

Feeling down. Usually people are nice but I delt with some real hater's yesterday . At the end of the day, I look good for a 47 yr old man

Want to talk?

Greenville is boring.

Hi xx

I hope everybody has a panties day

another day spent in total solitude

Something shinny for leg day it seems :) hopfully everyone is doing amazing xx

Hi everyone, im all dressed up and locked up, ready to playxx

Been dieting,feels good as I fit better and better into sexy things

#thigh highs

Hey x

Still here, just in the background so shout if you need to

Evening All xxx

Oops, my dog as just ravaged. a cat

1st night dressing in a while xx

A womans work is never done

Really would love to talk to others as I do all of this in secret.

so many women in their underwear so much desire to meet them ❤

hey let me know what you think do i just look silly or should i do more pics