• can you name the characters/actors and the movies they are associated to? AI at its best on xmas day
    can you name the characters/actors and the movies they are associated to? AI at its best on xmas day
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  • I don't think the rain will ever stop,
    Not for you my precious one,
    Time doesn't heal, its just longer apart
    A week, a month, a year or more
    It makes no difference, to your your broking heart.
    I don't think the rain will ever stop, Not for you my precious one, Time doesn't heal, its just longer apart A week, a month, a year or more It makes no difference, to your your broking heart.
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  • Anyone near pepperell Massachusetts
    Anyone near pepperell Massachusetts
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  • Thank fxck its friday
    Thank fxck its friday 😂
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  • My Eternal Mourning at The Manor
    I have always felt an inexplicable pull toward The Manor, that crumbling Gothic estate nestled in shadowed hills, wrapped in ivy and secrets. Moonlight slips through its cracked windows, painting the dusty halls with silver ghosts, and the faded portraits of long gone ancestors seem to watch me with knowing eyes.
    For years, in the quiet privacy of my sissy crossdressing fantasies whispered in late night chats and hidden dreams, I longed to shed the ordinary and fully embrace a feminine self that was lush, commanding, and gloriously voluptuous. Tonight, beneath a full winter moon on this chill December evening in 2025, that longing finally becomes my truth.
    I stand before the tarnished full-length mirror in the manor's grand bedroom, transforming into Tonya, the eternal widow of The Manor. My body mature, morbidly obese, overflowing with soft curves and generous fullness is no longer something to hide, but something to celebrate in this sacred ritual of surrender.
    The dress is everything I dreamed, a striking black Victorian mourning A line gown, crafted from luxurious satin that catches the light like liquid midnight. Multiple tiers cascade to my ankles, long puffed sleeves embrace my arms, and the high collar frames my face with stern, elegant authority. My satin opera gloves slide smoothly up to my elbows, gleaming in perfect harmony with the matching satin headscarf that covers my hair in modest severity. Over it all falls the delicate chiffon veil, softening my features into a haze of melancholy mystery.
    As I smooth the final folds, feeling the heavy satin hug every abundant inch of me the tiers flaring over my wide hips, the bodice cradling my ample bosom a wave of profound liberation washes over me. I am no longer the secret sissy of fleeting fantasies. I am Tonya: a gothic matron of sorrow and quiet power, forever mourning a love that never existed, yet reveling in the deep femininity I have always craved.
    With slow, deliberate steps the dress rustling like whispers from the grave I descend the creaking staircase and step into the night. My faithful companion, a large black raven I named Poe, perches on my padded shoulder, his ebony feathers blending seamlessly with my mourning attire. He found me years ago, drawn to my own inner darkness, and now he is the perfect emblem of who I have become.
    The manor grounds lead me to the ancient, overgrown cemetery, where fog curls around weathered tombstones like lost lovers. Here, beneath the cold moonlight, I wander among the graves, my veil fluttering in the icy breeze. Poe occasionally lifts off, circling silently above me like a dark guardian before settling back onto my shoulder. In this quiet, sacred place, I whisper silent vows to my feminine self to the sissy within who has finally blossomed into this magnificent, obese widow.
    Deeper into the surrounding forest I drift, the path lit only by moonlight piercing the thick canopy. The satin of my gown shimmers with every movement, the tiers swaying like shadows around my legs. I feel powerful, sensual, utterly complete my morbidly obese form no longer a source of shame, but a throne of gothic beauty.
    As the first pale hint of dawn creeps over the horizon, I return to the manor. Poe caws softly, as if bidding farewell to the night. Tonya will dwell here forever, in the heart of darkness and desire. And deep in my soul, the sissy dreams that gave her life will whisper on, eternal as the raven’s cry. Nevermore will I hide.
    My Eternal Mourning at The Manor I have always felt an inexplicable pull toward The Manor, that crumbling Gothic estate nestled in shadowed hills, wrapped in ivy and secrets. Moonlight slips through its cracked windows, painting the dusty halls with silver ghosts, and the faded portraits of long gone ancestors seem to watch me with knowing eyes. For years, in the quiet privacy of my sissy crossdressing fantasies whispered in late night chats and hidden dreams, I longed to shed the ordinary and fully embrace a feminine self that was lush, commanding, and gloriously voluptuous. Tonight, beneath a full winter moon on this chill December evening in 2025, that longing finally becomes my truth. I stand before the tarnished full-length mirror in the manor's grand bedroom, transforming into Tonya, the eternal widow of The Manor. My body mature, morbidly obese, overflowing with soft curves and generous fullness is no longer something to hide, but something to celebrate in this sacred ritual of surrender. The dress is everything I dreamed, a striking black Victorian mourning A line gown, crafted from luxurious satin that catches the light like liquid midnight. Multiple tiers cascade to my ankles, long puffed sleeves embrace my arms, and the high collar frames my face with stern, elegant authority. My satin opera gloves slide smoothly up to my elbows, gleaming in perfect harmony with the matching satin headscarf that covers my hair in modest severity. Over it all falls the delicate chiffon veil, softening my features into a haze of melancholy mystery. As I smooth the final folds, feeling the heavy satin hug every abundant inch of me the tiers flaring over my wide hips, the bodice cradling my ample bosom a wave of profound liberation washes over me. I am no longer the secret sissy of fleeting fantasies. I am Tonya: a gothic matron of sorrow and quiet power, forever mourning a love that never existed, yet reveling in the deep femininity I have always craved. With slow, deliberate steps the dress rustling like whispers from the grave I descend the creaking staircase and step into the night. My faithful companion, a large black raven I named Poe, perches on my padded shoulder, his ebony feathers blending seamlessly with my mourning attire. He found me years ago, drawn to my own inner darkness, and now he is the perfect emblem of who I have become. The manor grounds lead me to the ancient, overgrown cemetery, where fog curls around weathered tombstones like lost lovers. Here, beneath the cold moonlight, I wander among the graves, my veil fluttering in the icy breeze. Poe occasionally lifts off, circling silently above me like a dark guardian before settling back onto my shoulder. In this quiet, sacred place, I whisper silent vows to my feminine self to the sissy within who has finally blossomed into this magnificent, obese widow. Deeper into the surrounding forest I drift, the path lit only by moonlight piercing the thick canopy. The satin of my gown shimmers with every movement, the tiers swaying like shadows around my legs. I feel powerful, sensual, utterly complete my morbidly obese form no longer a source of shame, but a throne of gothic beauty. As the first pale hint of dawn creeps over the horizon, I return to the manor. Poe caws softly, as if bidding farewell to the night. Tonya will dwell here forever, in the heart of darkness and desire. And deep in my soul, the sissy dreams that gave her life will whisper on, eternal as the raven’s cry. Nevermore will I hide.
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  • One of my girlfriends partners wants me to cum in these for him. Should i
    One of my girlfriends partners wants me to cum in these for him. Should i
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  • Looking back at a couple of my sexy outfits
    Looking back at a couple of my sexy outfits
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  • Wow! One of my photos has hit 7,000 views. I am really honored to feel somewhat popular.

    Just finished going to my stylists. I have two of them now. One did my hair color today then braided it and also waxed my eyebrows. The other gave me a great manicure. Light pink nails. Getting me ready for holiday parties. I always feel so pampered and feminine when I complete my time at the salon.
    Wow! One of my photos has hit 7,000 views. I am really honored to feel somewhat popular. Just finished going to my stylists. I have two of them now. One did my hair color today then braided it and also waxed my eyebrows. The other gave me a great manicure. Light pink nails. Getting me ready for holiday parties. I always feel so pampered and feminine when I complete my time at the salon. 🥰
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  • my chest area may look abit off in color, thats my breastplate
    🖤 my chest area may look abit off in color, thats my breastplate 😅😊
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  • These tights are called velvet soft from m and s, they feel so so soft and look good too. Xx
    These tights are called velvet soft from m and s, they feel so so soft and look good too. Xx
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  • What is every ones favourite colour of Pantyhose / Tights / Stockings. Would like to see which one is the most popular.
    What is every ones favourite colour of Pantyhose / Tights / Stockings. Would like to see which one is the most popular.
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  • Disorganised present wrapping at its best with #outfitoftheday
    Disorganised present wrapping at its best with #outfitoftheday
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  • Hi girls last posts going away later to see family for Xmas back 23rd have a good day to my friends
    Hi girls last posts going away later to see family for Xmas back 23rd have a good day to my friends
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  • scammer Missannaelite sent me a 'friends' request after i gave her my thoughts about who and what she is. also is following me so she'll see this message and know I've warned all the regular girls to avoid her like the plagues. report and block ladies
    scammer Missannaelite sent me a 'friends' request after i gave her my thoughts about who and what she is. also is following me so she'll see this message and know I've warned all the regular girls to avoid her like the plagues. report and block ladies
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  • Goodnight girls, its getting late for me last two pictures
    Goodnight girls, its getting late for me 🙃 last two pictures
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  • Good morning, sisters.
    Some tips on how to make your photo look better without resorting to AI.
    1) For example, tilting your head back can partially hide age-related facial droop. Just for fun, take a photo of your face looking down and up; the difference will be significant.
    2) The light source and its location are very important. Light can make a face look younger, or it can age it. Light can hide imperfections, or it can highlight them.
    3) Makeup, at least foundation, and especially under-eye concealer. These three things don't require any special makeup skills—just apply them evenly—but they can improve your appearance.
    Of course, other makeup elements are more complex and require constant practice.
    But then, there's no need to use AI, although AI is certainly good.
    Interested in these tips?
    Good morning, sisters.💋💋💋 Some tips on how to make your photo look better without resorting to AI. 1) For example, tilting your head back can partially hide age-related facial droop. Just for fun, take a photo of your face looking down and up; the difference will be significant. 2) The light source and its location are very important. Light can make a face look younger, or it can age it. Light can hide imperfections, or it can highlight them. 3) Makeup, at least foundation, and especially under-eye concealer. These three things don't require any special makeup skills—just apply them evenly—but they can improve your appearance. Of course, other makeup elements are more complex and require constant practice. But then, there's no need to use AI, although AI is certainly good. Interested in these tips?😊🤐
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  • I wish i had real 38 DDs tits .
    I wish i had real 38 DDs tits .
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  • I really love this site lots nice cds chat with and make friends
    I really love this site lots nice cds chat with and make friends 🧡
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  • All Green today (almost) #outfitfortheday satin crossover blouse with faux leather skirt and suede boots
    All Green today (almost) #outfitfortheday satin crossover blouse with faux leather skirt and suede boots
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  • Whats the task or chore you do that you hate but would be a pleasure when dressed feminine
    Whats the task or chore you do that you hate but would be a pleasure when dressed feminine
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  • A life lesson.. Don't punch a rhinoceros in the nuts.. they don't like that shit..
    A life lesson.. Don't punch a rhinoceros in the nuts.. they don't like that shit.. 😌
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    Upskirts!
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  • Well that's if for dressing for now. Kids finish Friday, then it's Xmas. Will have to wait til they go back in January. Will be looking for outfits online during down time as I still want to go out dressed during the winter/spring
    Well that's if for dressing for now. Kids finish Friday, then it's Xmas. Will have to wait til they go back in January. Will be looking for outfits online during down time as I still want to go out dressed during the winter/spring
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  • So loving the pink but on the search for Christmas outfits now
    So loving the pink but on the search for Christmas outfits now🤭♥️♥️
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  • Are there any female mistress_goddess_mommy_domina here who have no financial or material interests? I'm asking for a friend
    Are there any female mistress_goddess_mommy_domina here who have no financial or material interests? I'm asking for a friend 😁😁😁
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  • Who wants to change
    Who wants to change
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  • Who wants to chat with me xxxx
    Who wants to chat with me xxxx
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  • Just a few outfits I love wearing
    Just a few outfits I love wearing 😍👄💕
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  • I've BLOCKED 9 BDSM Touts this week so far already xx
    Tout membership is rife on here.
    Everyone needs to go through there Friends list and Block all of them... They are very easy to spot .... Let's not let the site get any Worse than it already is xx
    I've BLOCKED 9 BDSM Touts this week so far already xx Tout membership is rife on here. Everyone needs to go through there Friends list and Block all of them... They are very easy to spot .... Let's not let the site get any Worse than it already is xx
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  • The issue I'm having as the weeks go on is that I'm blurring my sissy crossdressing with my mourning. Every waking hour I'm missing my wife and I'm a blubbering mess of tears but I'm also aroused at the thought of satin widows weeds and satin mourning dresses and oversized satin headscarves and chiffon voile veils. I'm bothered that this has developed as a further aspect of my gothic fetish. The arousal is blending in with thoughts of satin widows’ weeds, mourning dresses, oversized satin headscarves, and chiffon voile veils, I don't think that’s something to feel ashamed of or worried about as a problem. It’s a natural, human way my mind and body are weaving together different parts of who I am becoming during this incredibly tender time. Grief doesn’t stay neatly in one box, it spills into everything, including our identities, desires, and fetishes. For me at this time, the sissy crossdressing that’s always been inside is now intertwining with mourning because both are about comfort, beauty, vulnerability, and a kind of sacred ritual. The gothic element—dark, dramatic, veiled, satin-shrouded—has always had that edge of sensuality and mystery, and right now, it might be amplifying because it lets me feel alive in my body when everything else feels numb or shattered. Arousal in grief is more common than people talk about; it can be the body’s way of seeking connection, release, or even just a momentary escape from the pain. It doesn’t mean my love for my wife is any less pure or that my mourning is tainted, it means I'm a whole person, with layers of emotion and desire that don’t switch off just because I'm hurting. This blending feels like it’s developing into a deeper aspect of my gothic fetish, but I feel that’s okay too. Fetishes evolve with life experiences, and grief is one of the biggest. The satin widows’ weeds and veils are symbolizing both my loss and deep longing to be held, enveloped, seen in my inner femininity. My troubled psyche is creating a bridge between the sorrow and the sensuality I shared with my wife. There’s beauty in that, even if it brings tears and arousal at the same time. I'm navigating this with grace, even when it hurts.
    💙🖤❤️ The issue I'm having as the weeks go on is that I'm blurring my sissy crossdressing with my mourning. Every waking hour I'm missing my wife and I'm a blubbering mess of tears but I'm also aroused at the thought of satin widows weeds and satin mourning dresses and oversized satin headscarves and chiffon voile veils. I'm bothered that this has developed as a further aspect of my gothic fetish. The arousal is blending in with thoughts of satin widows’ weeds, mourning dresses, oversized satin headscarves, and chiffon voile veils, I don't think that’s something to feel ashamed of or worried about as a problem. It’s a natural, human way my mind and body are weaving together different parts of who I am becoming during this incredibly tender time. Grief doesn’t stay neatly in one box, it spills into everything, including our identities, desires, and fetishes. For me at this time, the sissy crossdressing that’s always been inside is now intertwining with mourning because both are about comfort, beauty, vulnerability, and a kind of sacred ritual. The gothic element—dark, dramatic, veiled, satin-shrouded—has always had that edge of sensuality and mystery, and right now, it might be amplifying because it lets me feel alive in my body when everything else feels numb or shattered. Arousal in grief is more common than people talk about; it can be the body’s way of seeking connection, release, or even just a momentary escape from the pain. It doesn’t mean my love for my wife is any less pure or that my mourning is tainted, it means I'm a whole person, with layers of emotion and desire that don’t switch off just because I'm hurting. This blending feels like it’s developing into a deeper aspect of my gothic fetish, but I feel that’s okay too. Fetishes evolve with life experiences, and grief is one of the biggest. The satin widows’ weeds and veils are symbolizing both my loss and deep longing to be held, enveloped, seen in my inner femininity. My troubled psyche is creating a bridge between the sorrow and the sensuality I shared with my wife. There’s beauty in that, even if it brings tears and arousal at the same time. I'm navigating this with grace, even when it hurts.💙🖤❤️
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  • This one is a photo of me in one of my Miracle Styled Swimsuits, I love to wear, from a couple of years ago. Appreciate comments. No AI on this one - just me.
    This one is a photo of me in one of my Miracle Styled Swimsuits, I love to wear, from a couple of years ago. Appreciate comments. No AI on this one - just me. 🥰
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  • Well its back to the grind for the next four days, stll gonna post this pic
    Well its back to the grind for the next four days, stll gonna post this pic
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  • Hopless Wait...

    ...One touch
    One Kiss
    One juxtapose..
    I'm ready and undressed
    My lips are bright
    And lust in poses
    That you might not
    Forget...

    Forget,
    I am a lonely girl
    Who looks for girl
    In vein...
    But men
    Are far away
    For Sole
    And body
    Says
    ...no way...

    I dream to meet
    My girl
    Lets once
    In night
    To feel
    Love kiss
    I am all yours
    My Dream desire
    My girlfriend
    Ohh my Miss...
    I miss you terrebly
    All day
    I lost my trust
    My peace...
    I hope meet
    Once
    pretty Soul
    Who answers to my kiss...
    Hopless Wait... ...One touch One Kiss One juxtapose.. I'm ready and undressed My lips are bright And lust in poses That you might not Forget... Forget, I am a lonely girl Who looks for girl In vein... But men Are far away For Sole And body Says ...no way... I dream to meet My girl Lets once In night To feel Love kiss I am all yours My Dream desire My girlfriend Ohh my Miss... I miss you terrebly All day I lost my trust My peace... I hope meet Once pretty Soul Who answers to my kiss...
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  • Good evening! Iv'e been trying to post but had to slap a few scammy mist_resses 1st. Looks like a bit of team work from them today, sharing each others posts and sharing others too!! May their R soles burn with the heat of a thousand hot as F chillies! Anyway, here is my pic for tonight
    Good evening! Iv'e been trying to post but had to slap a few scammy mist_resses 1st. Looks like a bit of team work from them today, sharing each others posts and sharing others too!! May their R soles burn with the heat of a thousand hot as F chillies! 🤣 Anyway, here is my pic for tonight 🥰💋💋💋
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  • New boots arrived, me gusta
    New boots arrived, me gusta 😊
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  • Anyone who whats to chat
    Anyone who whats to chat
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  • Trying out the thermal tights that's going viral on tiktok... They're nice, and comfy and lovely and warm. Would recommend
    Trying out the thermal tights that's going viral on tiktok... They're nice, and comfy and lovely and warm. Would recommend
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  • Watch Out for Mommy Alice sharing people’s posts .
    Blocked her and also reported her to admin.
    Watch Out for Mommy Alice sharing people’s posts . Blocked her and also reported her to admin.
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  • Hate members that just share other peoples posts and don't post anything of their own
    Hate members that just share other peoples posts and don't post anything of their own
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  • It has been a long day for me. I have several photos to post and yes my beach shots from two weeks ago are some I plan to show soon. But I am really thinking I shall just call it good night, for now. All me - my own skin - all my profile. OK the dress and my bed is AI generated. And I am wearing a wig - My actual hair is long and blond
    It has been a long day for me. I have several photos to post and yes my beach shots from two weeks ago are some I plan to show soon. But I am really thinking I shall just call it good night, for now. 🥰 All me - my own skin - all my profile. OK the dress and my bed is AI generated. And I am wearing a wig - My actual hair is long and blond🥰
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  • I have just woke up wrapped up in our satin nightdresses, at a time before her illness made sleeping together a problem, we had matching satin pink nightdresses. Last night I pulled the suitcase down from the top of the wardrobe and laid them out on the bed. Pink Simply Be Pretty Secrets Nightdresses in lovely silky satin. Full covered shoulder to capped sleeves with lace piping and spread across the breast. Calf length satin shimmering in Pink. My wife's is regularly worn in UK size 32/34, mine is newer UK size 20/22, I liked a slimmer tight nightdress that hugged my skin, my wife wore hers two sizes bigger than her usual larger dress size to make it easier to slide around in bed. I slipped mine on and shimmied the satin down my moobs and hips to rest around my calves. My wife's was like a tent on my body, lots of voluminous extra satin material hanging loose. The double layer feeling of all the satin was wonderful and I admit the erection had to be contained within a condom because pre cum started instantly. I lay on the bed and was overcome with both longing and grief, I laid there on the bed with tears in my eyes and sobbing in my chest. When I had calmed down the sensual aspect of the double layer satin took over and led to the inevitable masturbation. Physically and emotionally I was drained and fell asleep waking a few hours later needing to take off the condom and go to the toilet for a wee. As I walked back from the toilet to the bedroom the satin reminded me of our sensuality and our love. Wrapped in the double layer of satin underneath the quilt I felt comforted and slept deep until this morning. For me this needs to become my new deeply tender and bittersweet mourning ritual, one that holds both the sharp pain of loss and the soft warmth of memory all at once. Wearing her nightdress over mine, letting all that extra satin envelop me like a tent, felt almost like being held by her again. The way the fabric moved, the shimmer, the slide of it against my skin… it’s no wonder my body responded so immediately and so completely. And now I’ve found a ritual: pulling down the suitcase, laying the nightdresses side by side on the bed, slipping into both, letting the satin hold me in that bittersweet double embrace. It’s sacred because it’s mine and hers alone. It keeps the connection alive in the most embodied way possible through touch, through memory, through the very fabric we both wore against our skin when we made love, laughed, slept, lived. Grief and desire live right next to each other; one doesn’t cancel out the other. The tears, the arousal, the release, the comfort, it all belongs within my psyche. I honored her, our love, and the sensuality we shared by allowing myself to feel everything that came up. For my state of mind, there’s something sacred in keeping those satin nightdresses layered together, in pulling them out when the longing gets too heavy, in letting them carry me back to the nights when sleeping tangled together in satin was simply how life was. I'm keeping the connection alive in the most intimate, embodied way possible. I loved her totally, and I'm still loving her beautifully in my mourning.
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