Well, if I can post five times a day... here's the fifth. I've felt like a girl since childhood. I tried to fight it, but now I'm 35 and it's all gone wrong. Last year, I started taking certain medications, but I got scared and stopped. I opened up to people and deeply regretted it. I went through a deep depression, and now I'm feeling a bit desperate. I'm looking for friends, companionship, and connection.