There are so many guys that are interested in cross dressers but they are afraid of getting caught and they don't want to admit that CD really is hot. I fought the urge to dress for many years and I thought it was just the drugs I was doing because after they were gone I was embarrassed about the fact that I was really happy when I was dressed. So I would quit dressing sometimes for years. Even when I dress now I have a few thoughts about why I enjoy this and then I realized it wasn't the drugs because I was totally drug and alcohol free. So I must be just messed up and I have issues. I have learned to not feel ashamed of what makes me feel so good and enjoy myself. Anyone else have to fight the way you feel because you don't want to be caught and lose your self respect?