I have been publically: 'crossdressing' for so many years now that I'd feel odd and uncomfortable going out in men's clothes again. - It would feel like my first time out crossdressing as a woman all over again.

That fascinates me!... The fact that we can get so used to a thing!

If I were to dress like a male now, - men would: 'see' me differently and treat me differently... I couldn't deal with that. Women would see me differently too... I wouldn't be able to chat to them the same about men and make-up and all that... It's simply unimaginable now for me to ever go back to wearing male clothes...
...I couldn't even see MYSELF in male clothes now... Everyone knows me as: 'Amy'... The local bars, the shop assistants... My neighbours...

Can anyone relate to this?

...It just goes to show how utterly important how we 'present' to the world is.